Killing One Another

 All these killings lately!   Kid knocking on the wrong door getting shot by some paranoid old guy sleeping with his gun like a lover or instead of a lover, through the door no less.   Kid and her parents whose ball rolls into the wrong yard getting shot by some wired up anger freak with a ready gun and an apparent hatred for balls.   Cheerleaders who get into the wrong car then apologize get shot by some guy with extreme anger issues, and a gun.  Young people going down the wrong driveway get shot at from a distance by a resentful brooding anger freak, with gun.   

I'm sick of it.  Can't figure it out.   Only watch news now when brave enough to go through the horror it will bring.

Are Americans sick in the head?  Or just some of us?  

Well, its not just Americans. Sudanese are right now butchering each other.  And then there's the Russians and Ukranians going at it, Russia being the aggressor.  Do we not see the small picture?  Of war?  Little kids being hurt or blown apart or starving to death or their parents being raped and blown apart, the animals suffering so.  Individual lives are being completely ruined and to me every little individual life cries out in horror.   I might be in the minority to see it this way.   To even think of the nestlings and the bird parents somehow trying to be normal before their tree is blown to pieces.

I'm sick of it I tell you.  

In the midst of it, the church people too scream about gun rights, about the last thing you'd think church people would do.  It's like a freak show, life now, where nothing makes sense.  

Wildfires rage in the summers, chemicals burn in toxic messes like the Illinois recycle plant fire.  Rich people and politicians jet back and forth around the world.  All these things producing massive impact on the climate and yet we little people who can barely afford gas are supposed to muster up and lay out for an electric car, to do our part, and I want to slap my knees and laugh til I cry.  Life is some kind of sideshow, I tell you.

Oh I should shut up.  I like to witness random kindness that has no real witnesses, no cameras, no cell phones recording it, nobody to slap another on the back and say "oh man what a nice person you are", just the raw kindness, is what I like to witness, on the sly.  That's the only kind, I think.

I got most of my cats flea treated today.   Had to trap some of them to do it.  I'm not up to chasing them all down now with a net.  Too old for that.  They're old too, easier to sneak up on when they're sleeping.  Ha!  

Mr. Musk, too bad your multi billion dollar rocket blew up.   Really, do you think we should be heading to Mars?  We've already littered the earths orbit with junk and a zillion satelites, most there the better to spy on one another and plot ways to kill each other and lots of the rest so we can post photos on facebook.

If the universe has a soul, it'd be sending a black hole our way to vacuum us up like a spilled mess on the couch.

Remember, we're specks.  We are all nothing in the vastness of space and time.  When you see puffed up people pounding their chests, saying look at me, just look away and go on about doing your thing, which hopefully isn't killing other people, and live your life like you don't count but like every moment does.   Ok, I will shut up now.  Don't know what got into me.