My great neice and great nephew both have birthdays this month. One will be 3, the other will be 6.
But they already have everything they could imagine. What do I get them? Anything? Nothing?
If I go to my brother's for Thanksgiving, I'll see them too, maybe, and can give them birthday presents then. If I end up not going down, I won't send anything.
I never know usually if I'm invited to Thanksgiving til last moment. I never know if my relatives will be elsewhere and have forgotten to tell me. I never make plans to go or not to go. I'm very flexible that way and realize that's just how they are. They're not communicators. There's the add on with my knee issue. Although its been pretty good since getting the cyst drained, I have times it is still painful to drive. Not so much lately, after it has calmed down again, after the incidents with the kitten in the dash and then the raccoons in the cat yard. Both incidents and the aftermath, inflamed my knee. I have for the most part ignored the pain with hopes it will calm on its own and it has.
Monday's long drives, to the clinic, then from the clinic, delivering the cats back after, to Lebanon and Waterloo, gave it a good test. I drove mostly without much knee pain. That doesn't mean I could drive 3 1/2 hours straight, down to my brother's place. Do I attempt it, and get stranded somewhere, unable to continue, or just tell them straight up I can't. I hate to miss out on seeing them if I can. At best I see them for a short time twice a year.
My inclination is to go, if I get invited, and take with me what I would need to drain my knee myself, should it fill with fluid by my kneecap driving, from my torn up meniscus. I have what I would need here. I've done this before.
I've only seen my other brother briefly twice in the last ten years. They're in Idaho and he can't drive anymore. They do go to central Oregon now and then to see their daughter. Their daughter never communicates with me and I gave up trying years ago.
Having no family nearby or who even communicate much, whom I rarely see, and then only for a few hours, can be a little tough during the holiday season. Some years it bothers me, makes me feel lonely, most years I just accept that's how it is.
I love Christmas, because of the colorful lights and Christmas trees. I can't wait to put mine up.
I fell asleep early last night. I woke up briefly around 10:00 p.m. and was startled to see a blue wave had swept the nation. Then I went back to sleep.
I felt great relief this morning. I had not been alone in my horror and embarrassment I felt at what our country had become. I'm not democrat and not republican. Fiscally, I'm a born tightwad and admire efficient effective use of funds. I think government exists to clear the road, not cut trees to fall across it to impede people. That's a generalization. I can't really describe my politics. I'm very old fashioned in some ways. I like to believe Americans are the good guys--both domestically and internationally. I felt the current climate was to benefit and protect ultra rich people and help them get even richer and more powerful, exploit/forget the rest of us, tear apart our treasured national parks...on and on...it felt hopeless. Hope things get better--like the price of everything.





















