Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Deleting My Life

I've decided to delete my entire old life. In a sense. I've been under too much stress forever and a day. I can't cope anymore. I have to take major time off. I cancelled all vet appointments from after tomorrow on out.

I know what I'm doing is needed, but trouble is, I can't handle it anymore. I'm seriously stressed so much so I think I could die of the stress and exhaustion. So.....I'm no longer any good.

I've been yelled at too much lately. Too many calls. That darn stalker too. I can't withstand the pressure without a way to vent it out. I've been venting it out by yelling at people, at the drop of a hat. And sometimes sobbing. It's too much, what I've been doing, for me to take, without nice experiences in between.

I don't want to be that way. I need to focus on finding homes for cats here. My body is broken and needs to heal. I need to work on finding a place to live that is more peaceful and away from the chaos of city living.

I know this decision is going to make a lot of people who want my help mad or upset. I've already had people mad at me, that I'm quitting and won't be helping them. Maybe they'll find a way to help themselves. I hope so.

3 comments :

  1. A big hug from across the pond for you Jody. Take all the time you need to sort yourself out and start feeling better. You have done more to help the welfare of cats and educate the uneducable than pretty much any person I know of. What you have done over the years is astounding and important. You deserve some rest.

    Jane.

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  2. Jody-
    GOOD FOR YOU!
    GOOD FOR YOU!
    GOOD FOR YOU!

    AND-everyone else can just piss off!
    Let them find another lackey, someone else to use since they have used you up. Feel NO GUILT because you cannot help others if you cannot help yourself and YOU are the most important person in the world, your world.

    You have such a big heart and so many valuable attributes but you are so run down deep that you can't see them anymore. Heal yourself and keep in touch for there are those of us who see you for the great force that you are. Yes, a great force! Someone that has been though the hell and back again that you have experienced must have fortitude of steel to withstand and persevere to the extent that you created an "organization" in great demand (unfortunate as it is that it is unprofitable) You can recoup and rebound and redefine your life and emerge again stronger and wiser. Please find a way to keep in touch with us, though, as your inspiration would be sorely missed.

    Take care,
    Judith
    and, of course,
    veri word: didsommo
    LOL

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  3. Jody, I've been reading your blog for quite a while now and I just want to let you know that you - and the truly astounding work you do - has impressed me more than I can express. With so little support and such a big problem to tackle, it is amazing to see someone who goes out everyday and does so much good - not just a little good here and there, but straight up good deeds all the time.
    I hope that you are able to find some peace in your much deserved time for yourself. I'm sure the cats will enjoy the time with you too!
    If I didn't live across the continent I'd be on your doorstep to take one home as a new sibling for my little cat - who has given me more peace and love than most people I know.
    Take care of yourself and know that there are people out there that truly admire you and are thankful for the wonderful work you do.

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