Monday, July 06, 2009

You know, I might be going over the edge

I don't know if I can handle doing this anymore. I go back to that trailer park on Salem road because an old man is feeding a cat with four kittens. He wanted me to take the kittens but I can't take them. This is the same trailer park where the old lady had 33 cats on her porch.

So he tells me his neighbor, who now is sick he says, for a long time trapped cats and would take them and dump them out across the river somewhere or into the river. Someone who was briefly interested in adopting a kitten told me there is a whole family, Munsons or some last name close to that, who trap people's cats for sport and take them out and dump them or worse. They used to manage some apartments on College Park Drive, he said, and one of the clan still lives out there and may be still doing that to other people's cats, he thought.

This town is full of really messed up people. I'm becoming one of them, I'm afraid. I can't even go out anymore, without running into outright animal neglect or abuse or stories of it. So I don't go out anymore, unless I have to.

I caught the calico mom of those four doomed kittens. She was kicked or hit with something when she was young, and now has to look at you with her head cocked out sideways and wierd. The old man says someone broke her neck trying to kill her but she lived and that lots of people there still want to kill her, for no reason at all.

4 comments:

eewyuck said...

People are so sick. They are saying in the news about that teen that killed and mutilated over 30 cats is a sociopath. He might face 158 years in jail. Only his stepmom stood with him in court. That tells you a lot right there. You do need to get out but first cut down the area you are "serving" and concentrate on finding homes. Put up ads in more affluent area grocery stores that you lost your job and can't afford your cats anymore. I did that a couple years ago and got a few adult/teens adopted. You really need to take yourself out of this so deeply. You are not being apathetic-you are saving your mind!

Judith

Strayer said...

I mainly work Albany, seems like it should be small enough, only about 35,000 people, same place I now live. I think I was so disappointed by those sisters getting a cat elsewhere because they obviously would have made responsible owners and you just don't get that many people contacting like that, who will take an adult.

I need to get out of Albany. It was a big mistake to ever land here. I was up in Lacomb to pick up a cat. It's so peaceful up there. Stars. Trees. Nature. Not this solid concrete and packed up together concrete fake living. I know some people like city living but I never have tolerated it well at all. Seems all wrong, all strange and plastic and stress.

eewyuck said...

I know EXACTLY what you mean. We moved to this house 22 years ago this month and it was dark as can be at night with the only sound from the highway an occasional loud downshift. WELL-1 big housing BOOM later and the sound from the highway is so constant that it almost sounds like waterfall and the night "glows" in all directions SIGH! At least we are the lot in the center and still have some land surrounding us. The kids appreciate it also. Don't stop hoping and dreaming and wishing ;~)

Judith

Strayer said...

Judith that sucks. I wouldn't mind living in an RV, even a junky one, and moving just ahead of when the law would be at me for being a, let's see, undesirable. It'd be back to the way things were for me for about 30 years, when I was in the mental health system and treated like human scum. Would seem familiar, probably normal. When I was homeless, I had more friends and protectors (self-appointed) than I've ever known in my civilized living life. Most were drunks and hard to have a conversation with, but normal people would want to talk to me, when I lived along the river, on lunch breaks, almost like I was a priest that they could say anything to, confess all their hopes and fears to, it was something else. There are a lot of people just craving love and acceptance everywhere, amongst every class in our culture. We lack this in much of our society.